life is an adventure

ok

new life

new friends

new environment

new character

new mindset

new understanding

new experience

new tears

new laughs

new learning

renewing myself

at that time, when everything is not going well as i want. i try to understand and face it. but when i try to change but everything is still not same, i tired. just tired. want to start again, but still tired.

maybe others can think it more simple " just enjoy it" "feel it"

but i taste it by myself now, by my tears, my heart, my emotions
totally hard
totally tired

totally hopeless

i am just tired
but i have to life
i have to give the meaning for my life

my partner said the words that i know this before but really deep when he said in the right time and right part of my life's

" Allah give you the problem not for you sadness and tears even anger, but for something that you have to seek by yourself, the problem or anything that happening in ur life is the messages for you to more be careful to take the next step of ur life, watch and learn"

My Angel Mommy said

" you just only find a few people who bad now. as long as ur age more and more, u have to facea lot of people that will strike hard, damage ur good attitude, they will provoke ur hide emotion that u have try to hold it. just face it, learn, dont fall in same hole, u can trust me,u can do it :)"

still learn, still play, still believe to Allah.

"Allah, u know im not good. but i want to be a good person. as Your slave, as children, as women, as student, as friends, as people. please Allah, help me to find my right way in my own road, my own experience, my own life. Thank You for everything. Protect me and my Family and people that i love. "

a few words for my Allah SWT Maha Pengasih dan Maha penyayang.